| I miss my Jimi..... |
[Sunday
July 26th, 2009 at 2:17pm] |
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Just so everyone of you know, Jimi got arrested this morning. I won't go into all the details, but he may be gone for a bit if they don't l;et him come back tomorrow.
I have crying like crazy. And what's ironic is that one of my bff Amy's bf got out of jail last night.
*sobs*
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[Wednesday
July 15th, 2009 at 1:01pm] |
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Man.... too much shit going through my head at once...
I don't even wanna type it out. Jimi and Amy know a good chunk of it, Jimi's mom knows a little of it, but most of it is still unwritten.
Got an offer to write for Hospitality, a newspaper that focuses on the plight of the homeless. Might FINALLY get to work on the Human Pigeon story I've been thinking up. It doesn't pay, but at least my stories get told.
On another note, for years I've been wanting to die. Last night I was musing to a friend that, when someone wants to die that badly, the cruelist joke God can play is to let that person live while everyone around them dies. I mean, I have people to live for now. Ella, Kahlan, Jimi... but those thoughts still creep into my mind on occasion. More frequently in the past 6 months then ever. I'm surprised I can stand up straight, I'm so afraid.
But anyways, a little note to Lexi... I'm not taking sides in the thing with you and Jimi. I didn't know he felt that strongly (he never went into the extent of it) but I will go ahead and answer one question you may have...
He banned you because of the comment you made about his son. And in this case I don't blame him one bit. That was a shitty move on your part, it seemed as if you were using Mikey as bait. That hurt him horribly. If you thought that it would get him to "come back", even if just as a friend, you were wrong. It made him absolutely DISPISE you. I read the posts he made about you recently, and....man...I've NEVER seen that much hate in a post before in my life. Jimi tried to be a friend to you, really tried, but that made him absolutley hate you. Comgrats kiddo.
I'll continue to talk to you, as you need a friend, I'm sure. You have a bunch of good qualities, but dammit, kiddo, remember what I said on IM about watch your words and actions and KNOW what your doing and think about the consequinces? Yeah...
Anyways, g2g for now...
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| I want everyone to know this..... |
[Thursday
July 2nd, 2009 at 3:43pm] |
Ok...*takes deep breath* Here goes.....
JAMES BRYAN, I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!!! I WANNA SCREAM IT TO EVERYONE!!!!!
I WANNA BREED YOUR BABEHS!!!!
I AM YOURS, FROM NOW UNTIL FOREVER!!!
Ok, that was kinda juvinile...but I had to get it out. :D
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| Ella's firsts for the day, and a hellish trip for free diapers |
[Tuesday
May 22nd, 2007 at 6:11pm] |
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First, Ella slept through the night. (FINALLY!!!!!) It was odd, opening my eyes and the sun was up. My first words were "...What the fuck? I'm dreaming this.....right?" Mat held a smiling Ella in his arms and said, "Nope, she really slept through the night." So I'm well rested and happy. She also rolled over from her back to her tummy this morning all by herself! I'm so proud!!! :D
Around 2 this afternoon, we realised that Ella was very low on diapers. We know where to get some for free, and Mat sent me to get them. Which I have no problem with. It was him giving me the wrong directions, missing the bus, and getting bitten on the ass(literally) by a colony of red ants that I have a problem with. In the end, though, I got Ella's diapers. I may be itchy, hungry, cranky as hell, and in desperate need of a cigarette, but I got those damned diapers.
I also finished coloring a manga-scan of Urd from Oh My Goddess using GimpShop. Here!
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| Count Your Blessings...and bathtime shinanigans with Ella! |
[Saturday
May 19th, 2007 at 11:52am] |
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Ever had to dodge flying poop? It's usually pretty disgusting...for some reason, though, Ella did it last night during bathtime and I was laughing so hard I fell on the floor! As Mat was sterilizing her baby tub, I was washing her hair in the sink.
Mat's brother(and our employer) told me to make a list of the positive and negative things that have been happening to me lately, and more then likely, the good will outweigh the bad. I did it to humor him, and discovered that he was right.
I'm working on a book on self-mutilation, so far so good! I have the intro and first chapter finished, and I'm in the middle of chapter two. Thanks to the people who gave me permission to get things from their sites! It helps a lot!
Lisa
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[Thursday
May 17th, 2007 at 11:28am] |
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I owe an apology to the chick whose board I made an ass of myself on. I don't appreciate being called irresponsible and stupid, but, I guess you'll have that.
I've been going off at a lot of people lately. Things are just really hard for me right now. I won't go into detail but...I really miss my mom. I wanted to call her on Mothers Day, but couldn't.
Well....guess there's not much you can do about some things, but you just take the blow to the gut and move on. That's about all I can do at this point.
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| It's been a while... |
[Tuesday
May 15th, 2007 at 5:05pm] |
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People on here that I added as friends because we both seem to love "Suicide Club" are starting to be really mean. *sigh*
I'm no longer on the streets. Mat and I got married and we have a daughter, Ella Autumn Rayne Newcomb. I'm looking for new pics(I love Beth, but I need something new.)
Hoping to go see Spiderman 3 this weekend. Mat and I have both been working, so things are okay, I guess.
Still recovering from the cutting thing. Mom died not even two months ago, which triggered the worse relapse I've ever had(Mat almost called an ambulance, I was bleeding all over the place). Still avoiding the bitch that is my grandmother. Reading a LOT of Oh My Goddess(Ella likes the black and white contrast).
Anyways, though I'd just update.
Lisa
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| Cool Online Game |
[Tuesday
August 1st, 2006 at 10:47am] |
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It's a Powerpuff Girls game, but it's a fighting game! You can also play as the Rowdyruff Boys, or Dexter from Dexter's Laboratory. You even go up against Invader ZIM!!!
Here's the URL:
http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/301661
Enjoy!
HINT: To beat ZIM when he's using his Robot Spider legs, it's best to be Bell, Buttercup, or Bubbles. Jump and use your eye-beam! (By this point in the game, you should know how to use it.)
HINT: To fully understand the game and whats going on, read the PPG comic at:
http://ppg.snafu-comics.com/?strip_id=0
If I find any other hints or tips, I'll post them.
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| Dammit... |
[Thursday
July 6th, 2006 at 12:23pm] |
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My ex-cousin is really becoming a pain. I woke up on the wrong side of the recliner this morning. And some library books got rained on. The great lunch I had slightly makes up for it. It was definatly better then old ham and cheese sandwiches. I got to have hamburgers...well, better then nothing, but I also got chips and watermelon.
I also plan on writing a book about my time on the streets, possibly starting it today. Girl, Interupted inspired me to write it(I love that book.).
I've gotten sucked into a Dungeons and Dragons game Mat and Micheal started. Our Dungeon Master kinda dissapeared, so Micheal in DM for now.
Not much else is happening. I got a bill from Grady wanting $516. I'll see if my Medicaid can take care of it.
Mat is at work right now, and we plan on going to see the new Pirates of the Carribian movie tomorrow(He's been looking foward to this for over a month now. Hell, it's something to do.)
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| Sleepy... |
[Wednesday
July 5th, 2006 at 2:19am] |
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Past couple of days have been good. Mat's happy that I'm happier but my annoying ex-cousin keeps threatening to take my child(ren) away from us, which pisses us both off. Yeah, Kenny, I'd like to see your ass try. Mat's a third-degree brown belt in martial arts. You lay one hand on me or our children, you will know what pain is, fucker. But now, it's late, so one more cigarette and I'm heading to bed. I need to quit smoking...seriously.
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| Bored.... |
[Monday
May 22nd, 2006 at 4:36pm] |
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I have nothing else to do...
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